November 16, 2014~

It's been a minute since I wrote, I actually forgot that I had this out there. I have since gotten divorced from Chuck, going through a custody battle, and have found the love of my life. I never thought that I would find love so pure. I was never in love with my husband, I was resigned to the fact that I was older and probably wouldn't meet anyone else to settle down with.

When I decided to ask Chuck to leave, I was beyond fed up with him not working consistently, not taking care of our family in the way a husband should, and constantly relying on his mother to get us out of financial jams. I asked him about getting an education, about getting a different job that would be more steady, but not one of my requests went on to be fulfilled. 

I then decided that it was time to move on, I did however have the help of a good friend, he helped me to see that I can do bad all by myself, why did I need a man in tow..  Also the fact that I was not in love with chuck, I mean I loved him, he was a decent father, terrible provider, but a good father over all. That is if you are doing what he wanted the way he wanted it, he was a good person. But when he didn't like what you were doing or how you were talking to him, he would turn on  you like a snake.. Bite you quick, you wouldn't even know he bit you until you started to swell.

But now a year later, I have met someone who give nothing but the purest of love. I have never known a love like this. She is an amazing woman. Yes I said woman, I have been straddling the fence on my sexuality for a little while, but when I met her, I knew I was supposed to be with her. I dreamt  of her, I knew her before I met her...

I really love her!  Until I write again... Good night.